Check Up

Tuesday I had my first Dr apt in nearly a year. I have to re-certify for my meds periodically. So anyway, the last time I weighed in (march 2015) I was at 151, jumped my self on that scale and I was down to 138! That is excellent progress.

My doctor was really impressed with my skin, eyes and weight  loss - she commented on how I was beginning to look like myself again! My skin and eyes are much brighter since I quit drinking and started to take control of my health.

We began to review the panel of blood work that I had done way back in November, most everything looked GREAT. Except she forbid me to eat the yolk of an egg until there is "concrete evidence" that it is a healthier choice, - OK! - Where it was a little shaky was when we got to my liver function. My levels were 4 times higher than in 2011 (the last time I had blood work) and although they have come down significantly presumably from before I quit drinking her recommendation is if they do not come down by at least half in my next panel that we will have to do an ultra-sound to check in detail, the function.

By no means was this a death sentence but it was a clear snap shot of the damage my lifestyle had done to my body.

I drank more alcohol on a regular basis than my 4'9" body could handle - I am not against drinkers, or alcohol......I think that social situations and casual cocktails are great.......how ever when it is abused and over used it can have devastating impact on our bodies and minds. That was my case, and I think because I never really saw the physical impact my lifestyle was having I never really understood how far off the path I really was.

As happy as I was with my progress, it really was kind of saddening owning the path that I was on. It also gave me steadfast motivation to keep the momentum going in the right direction. We are granted only one body, I want to get the most mileage out of mine! I acknowledge that I have an addictive personality and am susceptible to forming habits quickly whether healthy or not.

When I was a teenager I was abusing drugs with my high school boyfriend. Its funny because prior to him I was a walking anti drug commercial, after I fell under his spell it started with casual pot smoking and progressed to ecstasy and cocaine. I as an ill informed teen tried to fit into his world. I knew in my heart that it was a problem and that it was wrong but we were too busy being in "love" and beating each other up to really stop. Until I did. He didn't. So I left. I left the black eyes. busted lips and rails behind. I am better when I do things cold turkey. When my head and heart say its over. Its over. 3 years after that I became a mother and there was definitely no looking back at the person that I used to be.

The alcohol was a hiccup. I am ready to leave that person behind too. 2016 the year of the Best Me yet.

~day dreamer