I am sure there a million things we all wish we could change in our lives. But a lot of us just don't know how to do it or where to start. I sat with myself last night and realized that I may actually not be relationship material!
Don't judge. I have an attitude problem. No matter what. There is a minuscule part of that slightly comical. For the most part not.
I hate being wrong, I hate being over the hot coals. I am sarcastic and cold at times. I will open up but only on my terms. Pretty much I sound like a 10 year old.
My last relationship I was distracted and unhealthy - I was a grade A turd face. But when I am asked about it I am unable to respond in a productive manner at times. I will shut down or get defensive. So I am trying to find a way to grow from that.
How do I find away to answer the tough questions with respect and conviction. I have to own my errors and flaws. To be able to give the answers that are needed. After 6 years I am sure that is the very least I can do.
Its not right to let someone else bear the weight of your own issues. Although it is so much easier to push it on them and allow them to kind of work through the mud that you had created.
head spinning.
~daydreamer
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