I have been

I have been the New girl, the Old girl, the OOOOOO girl, Transition girl, the OTHER girl. Before you judge on that last one, it was a long time ago. OKAY. We all have skeletons.

Most of those - ok all of those I will never be again.

Coming up on my almost full year of separation I have decided to amend my dating procedure.

The plan:

Go slow. Like really really slow.
Be open. Not like a revolving door but not like a fortress either.

Definition of slow : we are taking it back to the term "courting" eh-..? yeah! I like it. This can be accomplished by - exposure to various social situations, subtle interactions. Building a foundation built on friendship and companionship first. After a year or so of courting, the relationship can commence. ( I am pretty sure you all think I am nuts at this point but hear me out)

Our society has gotten so used to instant gratification. We thrive on the newest, the fastest and have forgotten the beauty of taking our time. We have to eat fast, think fast, drive fast......meet, fall in love and update your relationship status on social media. I am in no hurry. The right person for me will have the same ideals.

What about sex?

What about it? There is sex on every billboard, radio station and tv channel. Its time to dial it back. Sex yes is great. But - its so readily available on every street corner that it holds no value anymore. There is nothing "special" "intimate" or "exclusive" anymore.

So, My experience being the girl who helped get a person over their ex - never worked. It killed my soul mostly because I was always second guessing my position in that persons life.
Being the other girl was VERY short lived as it weighed on my conscience as a terrible thing to do to someone, especially having been cheated on. I was in a weird place in my life at that point.

The New girl was ehhh, after things loose their sheen its hard to say!

The OLD girl though - teaches you to stop rereading chapters lol. Leave it where it was.

And trust that I have become too old to be the OOOOOO girl anymore. Oh my goodness. Never again. I know Justin Beibs said never say never but I just have to with that one.

In my selfish little new journey - I am a ME girl. I will let you know where it goes, if anywhere.

~daydreamer