Desires

What makes your heart skip a beat? Is there a sight or smell that can trigger the chemical reaction of something that you want?

Desires can be as clean or dirty as you want them to. They are specific to each individual.

We can desire  for our children to do the dishes with out having a heart attack - we can desire for our partners to just know what we are thinking for once!

As I began on my journey it has taken me this long to start thinking about what my desires were, and to be honest when I first started - all I could come up with was what I did not want.

I had to begin to start to think about what I did want ~

I enjoy time by myself so, I desire autonomy.

The sexiest part of person is the level of conversation they can hold, I desire intellect.

So far I have described a long distance telephone relationship. I think its a start.

But seriously - ask yourself, what do YOU desire. If you know - ask yourself if you are getting it, and if you don't know ask yourself what it would take to get it! bommmchikkawowooow

Despite the large group of us that say we don't need or want anything. We do. Its human nature. I have always been a motivator pushing people to raise their standards, to push themselves to raise their personal bar. The other day I stopped and thought when has someone ever inspired me to raise my bar?

This survivalist attitude that I have had all of my life has pushed me to a point where I do not allow someone to inspire me. It is difficult for me to let someone in to the point where they can push me to raise my bar.

So, I discovered that I desire - someone that will motivate ME to raise MY bar.

Notice for a moment - my desires are all psychological/emotional. That is because the physical side for me is 100% driven by the mental. If you can not stimulate my mind - you will not have a chance at stimulating my body.

As a result. I have decided to become a Nun.

Not really but, I am sure you understand what I am saying.

It is like learning how to walk again. Letting my soft side come out (if there actually one in there) and letting someone else take the lead. I laughed out loud just thinking about that. Wish me luck. I really probably am not even ready for all that yet. Lets just see what happens. If I can embrace a softer side of me.